Three of my clients are struggling this week.
Major life changing decisions to make,
Enormous regrets about actions that can’t be undone,
Suspicions that they are too afraid to confirm.
Confronting something hard.
Making a decision I wish I didn’t have to make.
Robyn told me she wishes she would get a sign from God that she is doing the right thing.
She wants a spiritual experience that will confirm what she knows to be true.
She knows what it will feel like. She’s experienced it before.
I told her that we don’t get permission when we’re adults.
We make the decisions we make, and we get the good with the bad.
And yet I know what she means.
We do get signs, messages, knowings.
The thing is that we can’t order them up.
And when our head is full of chatter, worries, projections, self-abuse,
It’s hard to catch them.
This week, I was in a deeply relaxed state
And these words, came into me
“You will get through this”
“You must trust”
“You are loved”.
I know it was my mother, who I lost just over a year ago.
How do I know?
I sensed her, unmistakably.
And I felt immediate comfort.
Whenever my mind wants to go to worry again,
I remind myself of these words, and that comfort is available to me instantly.
It doesn’t matter how you interpret what I heard – depending on your beliefs, you could choose to see this as a message from God, an angel, random thoughts, or my mind making it all up.
I personally like the idea that I am being taken care of by forces bigger than me that I can’t see. And that my mother is looking out for me.
Robyn feels comforted by the idea that God will guide her to the best decision for her.
I don’t think we can depend on clear messages, though.
Because if we search too hard, we may miss the soft subtle signs that are always there. What if it we don’t need to receive an explicit message?
What if it were always true?
I believe that these messages apply equally to all of us.
To my clients who are struggling, to you and to me.
You will get through this.
You are loved.