I recently discovered that I can be sad and amazing.
This was new for me.
I have always focused so much on food as my medicator,
that I never realized that I have a few more.
I dug some up during my week at Onsite‘s Living Centred Program.
For the first time, I wasn’t focused on my relationship with food
so I got to look at what’s been hiding underneath.
I learned that masking can be a medicator.
I put on a mask to hide my true feelings?
(Totally missed this – guess how much time I’ve spent obsessing about food?)
The thing that makes this tricky is that my mask feels really real to me.
It’s called Amazing.
I explored this idea a bit.
I usually feel very amazing.
I have tools to feel better when I don’t.
And I think I’m expected to be amazing.
All the time.
Recently, I’ve been feeling sad
As well as often amazing
So I realized that I can be both sad AND amazing at the same time.
It’s a very freeing concept that I’m exploring here.
I don’t have to be happy and smiley in order to be the amazing person I was born as.
I just have to be
in order to be the amazing person I was born as.
Exactly as I am
at every moment.
That is the amazing me.
So, yes, you can be sad and amazing,
scared and amazing
happy and amazing
inspiring and amazing.
All at the same time
or on different days.
And none of these mean anything about you
other than that you were born to feel the entire range of emotions available to us humans
without one making you more amazing than the other.
Which I personally consider to be a pretty amazing discovery.