What would you do if no one was watching?


I broke a personal barrier last night.

I danced while no one else was dancing.
OK. I danced with  two friends.
At a party of 40 people.

Until last night, I was a person who only danced when everyone was dancing.
I was always mesmerized by women who get up and dance at concerts or parties,
Without making sure that other people were dancing before.
I was awed and delighted by them.
I was tempted to join them.
But my belief that I can’t separated me from them and the possibility of this joy.

Last night, I was at my friend Marda’s 40th birthday party,
marvelling at my effervescent friend Jen dancing up and down the garden all on her own.

I watched her and thought “one day I am going to do that.”

As  I was saying goodbye to Marda,
Jen ran up to get her to come and dance.
I said “good for you guys, one day I will do that too”.

And then I heard myself say to myself “or this day?”
Instant excitement.

I told Jen I was about to break a personal barrier,
and she gave me the key:

“dance like no one is watching”

Really?

I could do that?

Dance like no one is watching?

But they’re all there.

That was the worry behind my barrier.
I thought they would all be watching.
And judging.
Negatively.

What if no one was watching?

Well then.

DANCE baby!!!!

And we did.
Hours.
Three of us.
Laughing.
Shimmying.
Singing.
Sweaty.

And who knows if they watched or didn’t.

I was having way too much fun to care.

P.S. no alcohol. not one drop.

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About Forever Free with Bev Aron, Certified Weight Loss Coach

I work with emotional eaters who desperately want relief from emotional eating, but can't seem to do it on their own. They know they need to eat less and move more, but can't figure out why they aren't doing it. My specialty is showing them the why and the how. I also work with parents who are worried about their children's weight. I help those parents encourage their children to have a healthy body image and a healthy relationship with food.
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